Saturday, January 06, 2007
10:57 PM
i'm- not up
things are looking-not good
it's like.
your mood changes
ok.
(dont just blame it on internal factors
blame it on the external factors too.- like _behaviour's
_ mentality
_thinking
_LOOKS)
sometimes u just want to be alone
(away from the stares you get
as though you're suffering from some eye problem.)
and so you start flagging a cab from tm
there are no cabs
you then decide to walk further down
you look at your watch.. it's 7:56pm..
you want to save money, so you walk while waiting for the time to hit 8pm
your watch says it's 8.
you see many taxis
but to play safe- you wait another minute or two by walking further
ok. it's finally 8:03
it's enough of walking
you flag a taxi.
but no taxi in sight
you keep thinking bout your life
and your other half
on what you should do
and if it's right
thoughts bombard your mind
you feel lost
you continue walking
oblivious to the surroundings
you begin playing a game with your own shadow
seeing who can take the lead
you're tired of the game
it's 8:15pm
you see taxis drive past you
you stretch out your hand
too late. they're gone
you stand at the side of the road flagging like a total idiot
the taxis are playing a game with you now. just like everything else
no taxis to be found
you carry on walking. feeling all pissed.
you want to put an end to it
god decides to add more effect by raining
you are feeling cold walking in the rain
black tears and raindrops trickle down your face thanks to your so- not-waterproof eyeliner and the rain
so much for being vain
it's 8:45
your feet brings you to a bus stop
and you happen to see the bus that takes you home
you board.
everyone stares at you like you're insane
even someone offers a seat for you
you reach home at 9
and lock yourself in your own world all again
